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# Fading
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- Published: 2026-10-02T21:09:36.000Z
- Updated: 2026-10-06T16:19:27.000Z
- Description: A poem about feeling unfamiliar to yourself, living with regret, and fading as you're forgotten.
- Author: Hawtorn V. Rabot
- Tags: poetry, identity, memory, regret

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the mirror’s reflection  
the sound in the voicemail  
the thoughts in my mind  
the words written

they’re not me

the water in the glass  
the toothpaste on the brush  
the pain in the headaches  
the playlist on the phone

they aren’t me

the shadow across from me  
the dreams i don’t remember

the loss i can’t find  
or know when it went

missing

not me

i’m the voice i don’t know  
the selfie i hate  
the tone that makes me cry

i’m the shoes i never wore  
the clothes that aren’t familiar  
the texts i never sent

i’m the ghost of maybe  
the words i never said  
and i wish i hadn’t

the actions i regret  
and wish i’d taken

haunted

by what if

and regret

i’m not what i was  
or what i thought I knew

i can't fix it  
i don’t even know where  
to begin

i’m two left gloves  
lost in the memories  
but i can’t remember what  
  
i’m past the shadow  
to the dark  
beyond the gaze  
past the grasp

fading into the distance

as you

forget 

me

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