If I Look

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Put your arms around me
Take the first step or two
Or four
I have two right knees
I never learned to dance

Is that where my hand goes?
Sorry, I think it brushed your ass
I’m kind of nervous
I swear I meant to get your hips

Please don’t take it wrong
If I can’t look into your eyes
I just need to be able to look away
And I might not be able to
If I look all the way

If I look
You’ll know my future
But I can’t let you see the past
It’s been seen before
I'll fall back into that wreck

Though if I look and you see
And you don’t even blink
I guess I might just fall
A different way

I don’t want for you to see me
I don’t know which parts are mine
Anymore
If I could fall
in
love
with you
tonight
I would-
n't...
?

I’ve had this dance before
I’ve heard the song already
I’m still picking up the pieces
I forgot what I even look like
Please don’t think it’s you
It’s really not

I said not to look in my eyes!

I’m sorry
I didn’t mean it
No, don’t reach for the pieces
I can’t even look you in the eyes
Why would you put parts of me together?

Okay, I can look in your eyes
Only this once
Here I go
One, two, ———

Sobs.

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